My mind says I’m okay
I just don’t feel that way
My feelings are a mess
I’m having to mush stress
It makes me feel alone
Like I’m on my own
It’s making me feel insane
I don’t want to complain
Panic is taking over my mind
I don’t know how to find
Find my way back
It feels like I’m under attack
It’s a fight I cannot win
Its making my head spin
I can’t hold on
What am I doing wrong?
I just don’t know what to do
How am I getting through?
Why can’t I take this any longer?
Will I ever get stronger?
Strong enough to fight my way through
To be able to do what I need to
Live life my one way
Without the skies getting grey
No matter what is going on
I need to get this done
I have to make a choice
And listen to my inner voice
Start trusting myself once again
As I did back then
©Ilona brandwacht 20-10-2015